S.A.D.
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Posted:Jan 5, 2020 10:08 am
Last Updated:Aug 28, 2020 4:46 pm
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It's that time of year again....
It's dark when I go work, it's dark when I leave wor
All I want do is crawl into bed and sleep.
In the past I would break away and hide out with the Hippie.
We would drink too much and watch terrible movies, critiquing their poor writing and implausible plots. Even on the shitty, snowy days like today the time would pass quickly.....
I was enjoying myself.
Now I sit here and watch the snow fall on a dreary day.....
Thinking about how I had commented on Friday that I hated the Hallmark Channel because it gives people an unrealistic expectation for romance.
That love always prevails in the end.
The guy and the girl always fall in love, always end up together, that everything always works out in the end.
I'm living proof that it does not.
I would still be married if it did.
My ex-husband would have realized what he was losing when I left. He would have gotten help, stopped drinking, and worked toward a better life for myself and our .
Instead...
I needed a restraining order. His drinking got worse. He found a new girlfriend and filed for divorce.
Because, yep! I'm the loser that kept hope that her alcoholic husband would pick her.
My story is more of a made for tv drama....
The only thing missing is a tragic car accident and a corrupt police officer....
It was Nose Hairs that I was talking to in the lunch room on Friday. When he asked what I did prefer to watch I revealed that I love scary movies.
Why? He asked....
Because not once have I ever cried as a result of one, and not once did I ever say to myself, I wish that would happen to me.
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The long and short of it.
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Posted:Jan 2, 2020 3:49 pm
Last Updated:Jan 20, 2020 5:48 pm
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Over the years I've had long hair, short hair, in-between hair....
At the moment it's long.
Long enough, apparently, that I could get 3 inches and bangs cut off and nobody could quite pinpoint what was different about me today.
I was asked if I got a shirt.... (The shirt I was wearing is, in fact, 2 years old.)
I was asked if I got glasses.... (Nope)
I was asked why I looked different today.... (I said I was wearing fitbit.)
Which leads ponder....
If a woman's hair has such an important role in her overall beauty, how do things like hair cuts and color changes go unnoticed?
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And the holiday decals stole the show.
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Posted:Dec 31, 2019 4:09 pm
Last Updated:Jan 23, 2020 4:44 pm
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I had put sticky, holiday snowflake decals on the white board work during our holiday luncheon a few weeks ago. They were cute, and not limited to Christmas, so I left them up for a while to celebrate the season.
Feeling enough time had passed that I could take them down, I removed them before the afternoon meeting and had them sitting before me, all stuck together, folded in half.
Sticky side in.
We had made it through the majority of the meeting and we were doing the management round table when...
Suddenly...
The decals sprung apart with a loud popping sound, one of the snowflakes flying of the cluster and landing squarely on my right boob.
I wanted to die.
Boss #1 just stood there and stared as I couldn't contain my laughter anymore when the rest of the staff erupted in laughter as well.
Pulling the snowflake off my boob, it was actually my turn to speak and I was a complete loss. "Soooo, ok then. That's about all I have to share for today."
And that was when the meeting fell apart, the boss duo leaving the conference room.
Thank God for small miracles and the fact that I don't have to work tomorrow.
Hallelujah!
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Old Navy or Bust!
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Posted:Dec 28, 2019 3:49 pm
Last Updated:Jan 23, 2020 4:02 pm
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Ready to test your patience?
Itching to find a reason to hate human kind??
In the mood to stand in line for 20 minutes to make a return???
Then the MALL is where it's at!
I decided to go to TC today to get my ass of the apartment and feel like I've actually accomplished something on a day off besides mope around.
Not going to lie... It was a little hellish.
A man pushing a in a stroller the back of my legs as I was WALKING in....
Kind of set the tone for the whole experience.
On the plus side I was able to exchange the winter boots I got from my for a larger size. Score.... I got my Semi-Annual Clearance Wallflower bulbs for less than $3 a piece.... Score
And I didn't mow anyone down in the mall parking lot.
Bonus!
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It's 9:49 pm....
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Posted:Dec 27, 2019 6:58 pm
Last Updated:Jan 21, 2020 3:49 pm
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Of COURSE downstairs neighbors are hammering something in the bedroom .
WTF people?!?
This is a time for peace, for winding down from the day....
It is NOT a time for putting together your Wally-World furniture and vacuuming the shit of the place.
Morons!
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And.... Cut!
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Posted:Dec 26, 2019 4:16 pm
Last Updated:Jan 23, 2020 4:01 pm
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It was a weird fricking day today.
Boss #1 was flying solo today.... Reminded of the old days. Stirring the pot and creating chaos everywhere he went. Kind of like an evil villain....
He picked up the lunch tab, so I can't complain all that much. I thought it was going be kind of awkward eating lunch with him, but it wasn't all that bad.
I would do it again..... He did lend an interesting spin the tone of the conversations that were happening between myself and the others. I would even say it was enjoyable.
Nose Hairs finally noticed that Boss #1 was monitoring our interactions. He'd tried to have a conversation with a few times, each time interrupted by the Boss Man. We were headed the 2 o'clock meeting when he said , "I've been trying talk you all day, [Boss] keeps interrupting every time."
I just kind of blew it off and made a joke.... But he was 100% correct.
Oh, speaking of Nose Hairs.....
Once again he had a cliff hanger dangling from the nose hairs. At first, I didn't think I could do it.... But I did. I waited he was looking at , and I rubbed nose. Not sure if he knew what I was doing, or if he subconsciously did it himself, but he rubbed his nose as well.
Good bye booger.
Hallelujah!!
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Heartless Psycho
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Posted:Dec 26, 2019 2:45 am
Last Updated:Jan 23, 2020 4:00 pm
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I had a dream about you last night....
Perhaps you are right, perhaps your nick for me was correct all along, maybe I am a heartless psycho.
Maybe I'm not.
I finally took your pictures down and hid them away.... Funny how something simple like that can have such a feeling of finality. It had been hard for me to do, you had become my best friend, my confidant, and it was SO hard for me to leave that behind.
Oldest - You really did dump the Hippie.
Me - Why do you say that?
Oldest - His pictures are gone. He was a weird fucker, he didn't hunt or anything.
Me - He wasn't raised that way... You know that. His Mother followed a Guru around for years, I'm sure they preached peace and love.
Back to the dream....
In my dream we were on the beach. The sun was shining and the day was absolutely beautiful.... It was our favorite beach spot from a couple of summers ago when the water levels weren't so high at Sturgeon. I looked over at you and you smiled, your crazy hat nearly covering your eyes.
And I woke up.
I'm tearing up a little as I write this because I was a Heartless Psycho when I ended things. I've never had an issue ending anything.... I just say that's it, and that's it.
Final.
But there are times when I miss having that friend that I could just talk about my day with, and laugh about the stupid shit I experienced, and cry over the frustrating stress I deal with.
I tear up because, our time has passed.
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Twas the night before Christmas, and all through the house....
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Posted:Dec 25, 2019 7:53 am
Last Updated:Jan 2, 2020 4:08 pm
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It was complete madness.
Boss #1 was back work yesterday. I realized when he and I were in my office that I'd kind of missed his crazy, mood-swinging ass.
It's not going be the same if, and when, he does retire.
I'd planned on working all day, like usual, yesterday, when I ended up in the Dynamic Boss Duo's office.
When they asked me if I'd like leave early, I excitedly jumped at the chance.
This is the first year the are actually splitting their time between both my house and my Ex-Husband's house, so I wanted be able spend as much time with them as possible.
And, for me, that ended up being Christmas Eve.
We stayed up past midnight so they could open their presents on Christmas day.
There we were... 1 o'clock in the morning on Christmas Day, opening presents, drinking sparkling cider, and eating cheesecake.
I may not be the conventional Mom, the mom who cooks and sews and spends her free time wrapped up in PTO activities and book clubs....
But I am their Mom and a fun mom in my own way.
Now they are off to their Dad's and I am left here to clean up the mess.....
And make Christmas lasagna.
Because, you guessed it, they're coming back to my place tonight.
It's a fantastic thing, having a who can drive.
You are no longer necessary truck their little asses all over town. They happily do it themselves!
And so that's it.... Another Christmas under the belt.
Another year nearly behind ....
Hope you all have a fantastic day.
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Is my Ex being.... Helpful?!?
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Posted:Dec 23, 2019 4:09 pm
Last Updated:Dec 25, 2019 10:27 am
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unaccustomed to this feeling.... It almost feels like, gratitude.
My Ex-Husband was in shopping today, we ended up crossing paths on the sales floor. I asked him what the plans were for Christmas this year and we talked briefly about when I should pick up my .... etc.
He told to wait until Christmas Eve to pick her up, so I told him I'd get her after work. The conversation led to Christmas presents and he said he was just going to give her .
??
I ended up telling him about a few things that were on her Christmas list that I hadn't gotten her. She had wanted a new pair of converse tennis shoes, but I got her Ugg boots instead because she needed new boots. There were a couple of other things that I just hadn't been able to find and I told him about those as well.
She's a lucky little stinker because he told he would shop around town and get the last few things on her list.
It almost felt like I was in an alternate universe, to be honest. My Ex can be such a dink to ....
When it comes to the though, especially our , there isn't much he isn't willing to do for them.
I know a lot of it is because he's older.....
When you're 62 and your youngest is , I think you try to make the most of what time you have with them.
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Call me Scrooge....
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Posted:Dec 22, 2019 6:21 pm
Last Updated:Dec 23, 2019 3:42 pm
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I'm just not feeling the holiday spirit.
I think retail has a way of sucking the holiday spirit right of you....
So, I decided wrap Christmas presents tonight. A bigger task than I had thought when I first started . Once I started pulling them of all the nooks and crannies that I'd had them hidden in I was surprised at how much I'd accumulated.
Good grief, I spent the better part of 2 hours wrapping those damn things.
I'm feeling confident that I'm close being done, though.
things are coming in the mail via Amazon and a few stocking stuffers to go and we're golden!
more Christmas the belt.....
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TGIF!
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Posted:Dec 20, 2019 2:01 pm
Last Updated:Dec 22, 2019 6:21 pm
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It's been a long week.....
I don't have my this weekend, which means, I'll be finishing up the Christmas shopping.
I'm anticipating an even longer weekend.
Nose Hairs spent quite a bit of time in my office today.
It was interesting, to say the least.
Anyone looking on a lecture about car insurance, the of living in Chicago, or 401 k?
He's your man.
He managed to find his way back to my office when my stopped to pick up for the weekend. I was in the midst of the "stopping spending your at the school store" conversation when I heard his voice from behind me.
"Awww.... come on Mom. It's the school store."
Which led to a minute conversation about auto shop and boy stuff.
I don't know how I feel about Nose Hairs friending up my .
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The Ex
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Posted:Dec 19, 2019 4:12 pm
Last Updated:Dec 19, 2019 11:44 pm
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My gets off the bus every day at my Ex-husband's house, which means, every day I have see him when I pick her up after work.
Most of the time it's not a big deal.
He's an asshole, I'm a bitch, we discuss anything that needs be discussed in regard holidays, birthdays, and weekend plans. Then she and I are on our way.
I know it seems like a bad situation, but for her, it's ideal. She gets see her dad every day.
Then there are days like today....
He'd had a few beers by the time I got there to pick her up.
She was sitting at the counter and he was teasing her about being skinny, telling her she wouldn't be cold if she put a little 'meat on her bones'.
She replied back, stating she couldn't help it that she had a metabolism.
His response?
"You should have seen your mom when she was your age. She was JUST like you. Now at her."
What an asshole, I wanted punch him in the nose.
"Thanks for calling me fat. That was fantastic."
"You will always beautiful me."
Ok..... That was unexpected.
He then told me how he was craving little debbie snacks the night before and decided to make brownies. He cut a piece of brownie and held it me asking if I wanted try it.
"You JUST called me fat and now your feeding me brownies."
What the heck is going on here?!?
I ate the brownie, and dammit, the thing tasted amazing. I wanted it be terrible and dry, but it wasn't.
"That's pretty good."
"You'll never guess when the expiration date was. August 20."
Good lord....
He ended up sending me home with the last brownie, expired or not, it still tasted good.
We were on the way home when my told me that she and her dad had been having a conversation a while ago and he told her he still loved me.
I was quiet for a minute, not quite sure what to say. There are parts of him that I do still love, myself. The problem is, so much of him has changed as a result of his acoholism.....
And that outweighs everything.
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New Day.... New Lexmark Technician
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Posted:Dec 18, 2019 4:07 pm
Last Updated:Dec 19, 2019 3:30 pm
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After speaking the last Lexmark technician, a representative from Lexmark, and our ITS department, I finally created a ticket have printer looked at because nobody seemed be able fix the problem.
Why the LAST Lexmark technician couldn't FIX the problem while he was in office is still a mystery .
For days the top feed copy function of printer was experiencing quality issues as black lines were being copied onto everything I copied.
Not ok.
Fast forward to today... A winter storm day that ended up closing schools down and creating some very hazardous driving situations.
A day when most people stay home and wait the storm.
Apparently not Lexmark.
So, a Lexmark technician shows up in office and asks what the issue is. I proceeded place a blank piece of paper in the top feed and copy.
The copy that it produced was about 3 lines away from being a bar code
Lexmark Technician - I see the issue.
Lifting up the feed tray, he ripped open an alcohol wipe, swiped it across a long, narrow piece of glass, then lowered the tray.
Lexmark Technician - Ok, all fixed.
Placing the blank piece of paper in the feeder tray once more, he copy. Not a single .
- Are you KIDDING ???? Why didn't they just tell do this over the phone! That literally took 10 seconds. 10 Seconds!!! How far did YOU have to drive to get ?? And, in a blizzard no less....
I was fuming.
I learned, today, that the imaging window can get ink lines from time to time that just need to be wiped off with a glass wipe.
Thank God they sent that technician into the storm to drive an hour to wipe printer with a glass wipe. Whatever would I have done without him.....
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